I am writing this at the age of 16. Age 16 is a very prone phase of wishing for the ideal man- the perfect man. What are you doing right now? Have we met already? If yes, I would like to thank God for that. I wonder who you are and what you would be like; I want to be with a soft-spoken and gentle man who would feel like home. This is me wishing that God would lead my way to you, at the right place and time.
But then, as a willful one, I can’t help but think of a person while writing this message- questioning if that person would end up as my spouse or not. Funny because that is so impossible. A boy who is very kind, gentle, smart, responsible, and soft-spoken, the things the 16-year-old me is looking for a man. Laughably, at this age, I have only met a small number of people who are making a mark on my life. I am yet to meet a lot of people in the future; so why am I thinking that my puppy love could end up as my future spouse? Oh well, I don’t know. Only God knows whose heart is aligned with mine. Besides, there’s a lot more to come, a lot more to experience, and a lot more to feel.
Currently, I am still a mischievous kid with no experience of being in love. I always wonder, what does it feel like? I have experienced loving romantically, but what does it feel like to be romantically loved? I yearn upon the stars about you. Therefore, I promised myself to not settle for “just” someone. I promised myself to not get into a committed and serious relationship if I still could not do it. I want to enter one when I am complete, ready, and contented. I want to love you unconditionally and I promise not to hurt you in any way. I want to be a good partner to you, and I want you to be a good partner to me; the partner who would be with me through my bests and worsts, and the partner who I would walk onto the altar. But as of now, let us focus on building ourselves first. I am looking forward to meeting you in the future.
P.S. Please tell me how you’ve fallen in love, or have you ever wondered what your future wife would be like, too? If ever we finally meet, I would love to hear your story next.
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